If I Could Explain Today

If I could explain today it would come down to this. A headache that would not go away. A 14 month old daughter who wanted to chew/bite on my leg. A cat who I will probably never see again, and a mystery of who peed in the 5 yr olds bed. I have been trying to do things but either my body or mind will not let me. I am lost in a world of facebook because at least there I can accomplish things. I ask for help and I get a half ass response to it most of the time. I try to change things, to make it where everything has a place, but when I do that it does not stick. I make room, places for the items but they still end up on the floor. I get frustrated and end up saying this is why I do not do anything. I try to get dinner done on time but end up not making the deadline before my husband has to go to work. I feel bad that my house is the way it is but I am trying. I worked on my room for an hour and ended up throwing my back out. I find things broken and I get even downer than I was before. I can't buy what I need or want because I do not have the money. I can't pay for the chiropractor or for theapy right now and it hurts so bad because I am feeling like a failure. I want to be more involved but there are many things stopping me for doing what I want. I can make plans but they never stick. I guess it is just hard to work around school, appointments for seven people, people coming into my house, emergencies, and money. What do I do? Pray, scream, sell what I can to make it through the day, week, month. I am trying and people say it is ok but do they really mean it. Creditors are calling and we are getting bills that we thought were taking care of. I hate 2010, nothing good has really come from this year, or nothing I can remember. We are alive and healthy for the moment. We are together. All I can say it there is three plus months left to go and I pray 2011 will show us a silver lining.

Short Hair for Summer

Logan and his goofy smile.

Tristan 9 now and growing more and more everyday. Told me to cut more off then this, said he wanted to be like the avatar.

Now this is better. His eyes are so amazing and just plain beautiful. Logan is 7 in this picture and he is just as tall as his brother.

Riley & Mussler

Riley

Riley

Riley

Riley

Riley

Mussler

Mussler

9 Months Old /Easter Time

10 Months Old

Haedyn and Maelyn being hams.

Rarely do they get along.

Both girls are growing like weeds and are as you can tell not alike in anyway, shape, or form. Their personalities are different as well.

Look at her first tooth, the second is coming in right next to it. She enjoys music and sings with me while on my lap. Haedyn is a mover and a shaker, using things to help her crawl. She is not afraid to fall on her butt and is using caution to make sure she hardly lands that way, bending at will. She is into trying anything that momma has on her plate, but has limits. She is a hardy eatter and has lost her chubbiness, getting more lengthy. She has a soft voice, unless she is looking for me. Still a momma's girl and a late nighter, she keeps her daddys hours.

Maelyn, army crawling and slowly getting on her hands and knees to baby crawl. She has no teeth yet and we are just waiting for them to pop through. Her eyes are more brown now and we don't know if they are going to change anymore. She is catching up to Haedyn physically, as Haedyn is catching up to her verbally. She falls asleep quite well and has a regular bedtime. She has a demanding appetite and is not afraid to us her outside voice. She enjoys music and falls asleep to just about anything, she will wake up in the middle of the night or the morning and sing to herself.

Mother's Day

Flowers from my husband to celebrate being a wonderful mother!

Gotta Wear Shades

Maelyn offically 8 months old in this picture. (03/07/2010)
Haedyn 8 months old and styling in Morgyn's barbie shades.

Tristan lining up to begin his drills. This was his first match and he has another one next Wednesday.

He was so happy to wrestle, but embarassed at me waving and cheering him on. And if you listen to the videos you can hear a momma cheering on her son. He was so good out there, he says that he is their secert weapon. He won both of these matches and we are so very proud of him.

Tristan's Second Match

Tristan's First Match

This one scared me.

Strolling in the Sun

It was suppose to rain all week but we got 70's and sun. I decided that I did not need to be indoors on a day like this so I called the boys school and told them that they were to be walkers. So Chris got the stroller out and he began to load the babies. Since they have been trying to sit up on their own we decided not to put them in their carseats but to let them ride without them.

I was so scared that they might fall out but their daddy did a great job strapping them in. Maelyn is giving me the stink eye.

There is the happy baby we all know and love.

Her beautiful smile and dipples to match.

I swear Haedyn looks like her nana, (my mom).

More of my chunky monkey.

She is such a ham, and very soft spoken.

See I told you their daddy did a good job.

Morgyn standing guard, making sure they do not fall out.

Maelyn just had to find things to put into her mouth.

Haedyn becoming a Mets fan, oh no!

And she found her thumb.

Maelyn loves her daddy!

So we picked up Logan and Tristan did not have wrestling practice but he stayed for the computer club. We all ventured home and by the time we made it back Chris had to jump in his car to go and get Tristan. It was so nice outside that I left the babies in their stroller and sat on the sidewalk next to them. We sat there until it was time to go to Tristan's wrestling match.

Tristan's Tripping Accident

Not broken!

Tristan home from the immediate care center resting with the dogs on his new bed for the weekend. Tristan was playing in the gym, some game where they were jumping over cones and soft bricks, well he tripped and fell. The teacher made him sit out the rest of the time and then he continued on with his day. Chris picked him up and said he was limping, too bad the school did not call us to let us know. Well after he settled at home Tristan went out to play and then came in crying that his leg hurt. When I called him into my room and took a look at it the foot was beginning to swell and bruise. I took him to the immediate care center where the doctor checked it out and gave him an x-ray. I could hear him singing from the other side of the door. He was more stoked about the wheelchair then anything. The doctor said it looked like it was not broken but wanted a specialist to look at the film, we are still waiting on the call.

This is his foot wrapped and he has crutches to help him out with his walking. He is still learning on them and that is why he is in the livingroom. I do not want the other kids rolling on his foot or playing around him and hurting him worse.

The dogs will not leave his side right now.

Tristan trying to sleep, but his foot is bothering him. I think the dressing is too tight and he just can't get comfortable.