Here are some videos of us seeing and touching the babies for the first time. It was both heartbreaking and heartwarming at the same time. I thought it was my fault that they were in the situation they were in and would not have been able to forgive myself if something else had happened to them. They were so tiny and I was scared to touch them, and scared of all of the machines that they were attached to. I started to cry, it was the only thing I knew I could do. Tears of joy, frustration, sadness, and of hope. How I longed to hold them in my arms and give them the love that was aching to be released from my heart. All I could do was stay as strong as I could and pray for them to get better everyday.
The journey to get to them everyday was hard, walking was a very bad experience, because of the c-section, and waiting for a wheelchair just took too long. We could not stay long because sitting got uncomfortable, more or less painful, and I really needed my rest, but we would return to them as soon as I could.
Maelyn 07/08/09
Haedyn 07/08/09
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